Speaking Like A Villain With Nothing To Prove

Lately, as I’ve been playing various games, reading various stories, and watching various shows/movies, I’ve been thinking about the lines characters say right before starting a battle. Villains are notoriously fond of their dramatic one-liners, but they don’t have a monopoly on them. Heroes use them plenty as well, as do people engaged in more social-oriented encounters since, no matter who says it, a dramatic one-liner is supposed to represent a blow delivered. Sure, in physical combat scenario, that social blow doesn’t mean much in terms of damage dealt back and forth, but it represents a level of confidence and self-assuredness the speaker is displaying in order to either boost their own morale or to unnerve their foes. Mostly, though, these lines exist in stories for we readers/watchers/players, to tell us something about the encounter that’s either happening or about to happen and the people who are participating in it. After all, the famous “No, Mr. Bond, I expect you to die” line tells us tons about the person speaking it. Mostly, perhaps, in the context of the broader scene and as an accentuation on a character rather than a defining trait, but that line is the only thing I remember, since I’ve even forogtten the name of the villain who spoke it (I’ve also literally only seen part of that movie once, when I was far too young, when I came down from my bedroom to ask my parents something long after I was supposed to be asleep, so my memory being spotty is fairly reasonable in this case). I feel pretty comfortable saying that, regardless of their original context or what else might have been going on in the story, these kind of memorable one-liners eventually come to define our ideas of these characters more than anything else does.

Continue reading

Burning It All Down In Heart: The City Beneath

As I’ve mentioned many times before, I absolutely love the beat system in Heart: The City Beneath. Being able to take the choices my players make about where they want their character to go next and spin them all up into a larger plot for us to run through over however many sessions it takes is truly a gift, especially when I’m playing with five other players who are more closely aligned than they realize. I try to avoid calling attention to the beats each of them are picking, since I know some of the players want to be able to surprise each other and I don’t want all of my players thinking about the best way to build up each other’s beats or whether or not something has come up is for them or for a different character. I have no problem talking them out, of course, since we’re playing a horror game and good communication is key, but I generally don’t prompt my players to do that. At the mid-point of our last session, though, as we came back from everyone’s mini-sessions and the party reunited after being separated for almost in-game two weeks, I had my players read out their beats because it turned out that not only had several picked the same beats as at least one other player (with one major exception, but his journey is very different from everyone else’s right now), but they all picked beats that complimented each other. As it turns out, everyone (even the player with unaligned beats) wants to burn down the city they’re in or otherwise destroy the massive corporation at the center of said city, and they’re all picked beats that aligned with that goal.

Continue reading

The First Heavy Snowfall Of This Wisconsin Winter

We finally got our first blizzard. It isn’t the first snow that will probably stick around for a month or more (that fell a few days prior) [and all of this turned out to be speaking way too soon since we have rain and temperatures in the high 30s and 40s forecast for a week from now so it probably won’t actually last a month], but we got a decent amount of snow dumped on us and even more whipped around. The winds were so strong that they were picking snow up off the ground to add to the stuff already in the air because it hadn’t hit the ground yet. It was quite a day and I spent it working from home since it started in the early hours of the morning and carried on until an hour or two before midnight. It was quite a pleasant bit of weather to enjoy from the cozy confines of my apartment. I’m luckly enough, at present, to avoid most of the unpleasant bits of winter weather since I don’t have to shovel any sidewalks or driveways, I didn’t have to drive anywhere, and all that took me outside was my own desire to go out in the snow as it fell. A desire I sated mostly by opening my door to my balcony rather than by going downstairs since my landlord has done a pretty poor job of maintaining the sidewalks between the apartment buildings and I didn’t want to mess with slush and ice on top of all that wind. I even discovered the the tree right outside my balcony is the perfect kind of pine tree to hold snow on its branches and gets transformed into a beautiful white statue. As far as wintery days go, this one was aesthetically pleasing to me and went a long way towards redeeming my experience with winter over the last few years.

Continue reading

Gideon The Ninth Was A Lark

Aside from one friend recommending a wide array of books, I’ve never really encountered anyone who has talked about why someone should read Gideon The Ninth or its sequels. Tons of people talked about those books, but it was mostly hidden behind spoiler tags, involved little more than invoking the jacket blurb describing it as “lesbian necromancers in space,” or was people parroting quotations back and forth that were lines removed from context that mostly weren’t spoilers. No one really talked about the book in a way that made it seem interesting or appealing to someone who hadn’t read it yet, just talking about various critical plot moments or theories about the upcoming third book instead of really trying to expand the web of people who’ve read it. I will be the first to admit that I probably need to find better sources for books and book-related discussions given how unreliable my casual discussion spheres appear to be, but I also felt like this had become an established series for a lot of people which made it fall into the “of course everyone knows about this and has read it” void. Aside from the one recommendation I’d gotten from a friend (which is ultimately what made me buy the book since I deeply trust her taste in books), it seemed like no one ever felt the need to suggest it to anyone.

Continue reading

The Lost Odyssey That Got Away

I was talking to a friend about video games a couple weeks ago and we briefly touched on a game called Lost Odyssey that we’ve both played and, coincidentally, stopped playing at almost exactly the same point in the game. He stopped playing at the last save before a difficult boss fight because he was stuck in the lead up to that boss fight and couldn’t figure out how to beat the boss. I stopped playing immediately after winning that boss fight because, after stopping for the night after winning that difficult fight, my Xbox 360 red-ringed and I lost all of my save data. The reason we never went back to try to play through that game again was because that fight was on the third of the four discs for the game and there was just too much game for us to want to play again. It wasn’t a bad game, but it was just so very long. I definitely enjoyed my experience playing it, but it slipped my mind so thoroughly that I never even looked up how the story ended despite it being almost a decade and a half since I lost my game data and decided not to try playing it again. I probably still own that stack of CDs, since I still have my Xbox 360 hanging around somewhere (I haven’t plugged it in for at least a decade at this point, so who knows if it even works still), so I might someday replay it. Probably not, given how little time I’ve got and how much other stuff I’ve got to read, play, watch, or listen to, but I still think about it from time to time.

Continue reading

My Year In Haiku: 2023

In what will probably become a yearly tradition (two years in a row does not a tradition make, but three definitely does so I look forward to calling this a tradition next year), it is time for my yearly Haiku post! Before I share all these little glimpses into my day-to-day life in 2023, though, I’ve got a couple notes. First and foremost, they’re all titled as the date I wrote them, which can be a bit troubling sometimes since there’s a few from the same date, but they’re not necessarily connected beyond sharing the title. I leave it up to your interpretation to decide if they’re a part of the same message or disconnected expressions. Additionally, and probably most importantly, these aren’t traditional Haiku. Or really Haiku at all, since the structure of them is a part of the poetic form and the whole 5-7-5 thing is an English adaption of a Japanese form of poetry. Unfortunately, we changed a poetical form and reused the name, so I’m pretty much stuck calling them Haiku for the time-being. If you’re one of the handful of people who was about to bust my chops before I wrote this disclaimer, just think of them as structured free-verse poetry. If you weren’t about to bust my chops, then it’s fine and we can keep calling them Haiku because language shifts and changes and I think its fine to reuse names in new ways for things that people used to be confused about.

Continue reading

Working Out My Aches And Pains

Over the last couple months, I’ve been on a new medication that has given me the primary side-effects of drier skin along with more joint and muscle aches. One of the potential side effects is horrible sunburn, so it’s probably for the best that I’ll be doing the majority of this course of medication during the less sunny months of the year, but the losing battle I’m fighting against keeping my skin from drying out and bleeding all the time has me wondering if maybe it’d be better to have waited for the spring when the heat wasn’t on full-blast at work. I mean, the humidity dropping into the single digits in my workplace is rough enough during a normal year and thowing a medication side-effect that is causing my skin to dry out in places it never has before (namely my face, though everywhere else is also drying out worse than it ever has before) has me feeling pretty exhausted most days. Which might also be another side-effect of the medication I’m on, but that’s difficult to say one way or another given my penchant for insomnia and that moving through the stiffness that accompanies the joint aches requires more effort on my part than moving around usually does. Still, given why I’m taking the medication, it’s probably worth it. After all, these side effects are a temporary problem and the medication will hopefully fix a long term issue (and all signs to point to it fixing that issue, so far, even after only two and a half months).

Continue reading

Spider-Man 2 Moved Me More Than Any Triple-A Game Ever Has

I finally finished Spider-Man 2 over my holiday vacation. I actually finished it so early in my vacation that I forgot that I never wrote about my final thoughts and impressions of it, which feels like a disservice to what was an incredibly memorable game. As I said in my last post about Spider-Man 2, this game has improved on every part of the previous games, not only mechanically but in terms of storytelling and game craft. It feels like a triumph that somehow got overlooked by most of popular media as it somehow vanished incredibly quickly from the public consciousness in the weeks after its release. I honestly don’t think I could recommend any other Spider-Man game after playing this one, except as a way to get caught up on the plot and so the payoff of events from older games can actually hit as hard as they would if you’d spent so much time getting to know the characters. All in all, Spider-Man 2 is definitely one of my top games from 2023 and I think I got more genuine emotional responses from this game than I did from my hundreds of hours playing Baldur’s Gate 3 (which is the only comparison I’ll make since any other comparison of these two wildly different games is a disserve to two stellar releases from 2023). It just delivered on everything I wanted from it and even went so far as to deliver plenty that I didn’t even know I wanted.

Continue reading

Slowly Stepping Away From Social Media

Over my little break from work (which I say a little tongue-in-cheek because 12 consecutive days away from work is the longest break I’ve taken in years other than my trip to Spain which I’m excluding since that was fun but definitely not a break and also because 12 days isn’t really that much of a break considering a third of those days where weekend days and a third of those days were holidays), I stopped using most social media. I pushed myself to log on at least once a day to share my blog posts and would occasionally find myself browising Cohost to see what was going on, but I think I spent maybe a total of an hour on Bluesky, Facebook, and Cohost combined over that period. I’m not saying that I miraculously found my lost ability to focus or that I somehow managed to break free of the grip that social media has on my brain, just that I didn’t really wind up in a position where I felt like checking out social media. The times I did feel like checking it made it abundantly clear to me that social media is only for when I’m bored and tired. If I’m just tired, I’ll usually just keep doing whatever I’m doing since I rarely let being tired stop me from doing things (which, honestly, is probably not super healthy for me given the way it impacts my bedtime). If I was bored, I usually just pushed myself away from wherever I was sitting and found something new to do (since I’ve liberally sprinkled my apartment with various forms of entertainment). Only the two combined could push me to check social media since I didn’t have the willpower to push myself to move on to a new thing and I was too bored with what I was already doing to continue doing it.

Continue reading